My baby boy is three months now. Many times I have started typing my birth story, think about the details and how I want to share. I haven’t yet got the wording right. Truthfully, I am not yet in a place where I’m ready to just piece all the details together to share. I’ve actually shared pieces of my story in a few conversations on Facebook, but that was to help make certain points or answer questions from other mamas. But every single detail, every feeling that I felt that day... Don’t yet have the wording ready. Some days I am still working on accepting my experience.
I planned a home birth. I felt confident that it would happen how I envisioned. But I ended up in the hospital, during a pandemic. My experience and all the people involved changed greatly than what I had planned. Or did it?
There is much I am grateful for despite missing out on a home birth. Of course I am grateful for me and my baby’s health! My partner and doula were both able to be with me. I continued to feel empowered and make informed decisions. The doctor that caught my baby I had two visits with during pregnancy so he was not a stranger. I was able to push and deliver my baby boy in the position I envisioned throughout pregnancy. Delivering in hands and knees allowed me to complete the task of bringing my baby Earth side with what seemed like little effort. I pushed for just a few minutes. I felt my baby emerge from my body. No tears, I did not need any stitching. I had what some would call a “big baby”, 9lb 6oz and the doctor told me I made it look easy. I am quite proud and brag plenty!
The hospital staff disapproved but my doula recorded the birth. I enjoy watching my baby transition from my body! I was able to leave the hospital the next day instead of staying the standard two days.
One day I’ll present a detailed account of the days events. But for now just know my baby and me came out of the experience happy and healthy! I didn’t get everything I wanted but I had what I needed, for that I am thankful!
Hippie Mama Chronicles
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